Mike's Tattoo

So in my last post I said that I would post a picture of Mike's new tattoo so I took a picture but I must say that Mike does not have the most attractive feet so just pay attention to the tattoo instead :) I love him no matter what though!

35 weeks and 5 days.

So yesterday I had my 35 week check up. Nothing really exciting to report...just some softening of the cervix but that's okay with me since this little guy is not quite head down yet. He is almost there but still really high. So I go in next week and if he is still not head down then we will proceed with an EV. I just hope that there is enough room for him to turn and not stay where he is.

This past weekend my parents kept Sydney for Friday and Saturday night and Mike and I got to go stay in a hotel for a 2 days. It was so nice to not worry about anything and just hang out together. We dropped Sydney off at my parents Friday and headed to the hotel and then went to the store to get some snacks and dinner. We watched some movies without being interrupted by a little 2 year old and there was a private hot tub in our back patio and it was not hot at all so Mike and I both got to go in. Saturday, we got up and we to breakfast and then went to an early showing of Terminator Salvation which is a good movie if you like NON STOP action. The Mike and I headed to Dreamscapes Tattoo where Mike got a tattoo on his foot. He just got the name Sydney and I would have to say that I really really like it and it makes me want to get one really bad! We then spent the rest of the time relaxing at the hotel. Mike that night could not go in the hot tub because of the tattoo so I just went in myself and I would have to say with this pregnancy I much prefer being in the water it is just so much more comfortable for me.

Monday, Mike had the day off and we were suppose to go to Heather's for a BBQ but Sydney had some weird virus I think and just kept complaining of her stomach hurting so we just stayed home and kept the little bug at our house. The rest of the week has been uneventful but that's okay, it has given me time to figure out the things that I need before the little guy arrives. 

We stopped giving Sydney her paci during the day and she has been doing really good about it and she will put it in the drawer where we place it every morning (in the kitchen) and sometimes we find the little sneak taking it out of the drawer, running into the garage, sucking on it and then putting it back into the drawer. I just laugh so hard and tell Mike to deal with it because I find it funny. And lately Sydney has been talking a lot more but some of the things Mike and I would be the only ones that could understand her because we are actually with her all the time, but I do love the way she tries to communicate and the words she uses instead of the actual word. Here are some of the things that she says that make me laugh.

Cream=lotion and she has to have it on every night and if she gets hurt and we don't have band aids

Apple juice=for anything to drink

Instead of asking "what are you doing" its "doin mom" or "doin dad"

"okay mom" if she thinks that Im hurt.

There are so much more but I am not going to make you read all of them :) Hope you all have a great week and I will let you know an update from the doctors next week. Also I will post pictures of Mike's tattoo when he gets home from work today!

Come on now...

Alright so if you know me at all you know that I tend to be pretty good at holding in my emotions in until I end up exploding or having an emotional breakdown, which is totally not pretty when I'm pregnant. 

I never thought that I would be the one to struggle with trying to figure out how to love another baby. I mean I have told my husband a million times that your heart just does it. Well for the first time I actually can not believe what I am saying. How am I going to love this little baby like I already love my little girl? Everyone has told me as mother we just do it, but I want to know how and I want to love this little boy as much as I love Sydney but right now its just not happening. Don't get me wrong, I love this little miracle and it is something that Mike and I have wanted for over a year and he is almost here but at the same time I am actually scared. I am not scared of life with two kids or how I am going to do it, or how hard it is going to be going from one to two kids. I am actually scared of how I am going to love two of my kids when it seems like I already love Sydney with my whole heart. 

When I was pregnant with Sydney all I knew was that I better be having a boy because I have no idea what to do with a little girl. Well God obviously was laughing because he decided to bless us with a little girl. This time I really did not care I just wanted another baby, but secretly I wanted another girl, God thought differently. Boys are so different than girls that it is going to take a lot of time for me to understand how little boys work and all that jazz. 

So praying has been a big thing for me these past few days when I actually found out what the heck was really bothering me. The funny thing it is came out after I had lunch with my husband on monday and realized that this was my issue. I pray that God solves my little issue fast so that I can enjoy this little boy!

33 weeks...HOLY COW!

Today I am miraculously 33 weeks and 4 days. I actually never thought that I would make it this far. Lately my favorite question that I get asked by people that really have no idea what has been going on with me it "how are you feeling?" Well first off let me start by saying that I am forever grateful and thankful for this little boy and I would be pregnant forever if it meant that I could meet him one day but after all of that I am really not feeling too great. I think I am officially over the morning sickness which ended at 29 weeks but there are other things that are not so much fun when you are 8 months pregnant. I don't sleep very well 1. because I am huge 2. because I have to get up and pee all the time. I have contractions which are not very comfortable but at least they are not doing anything right now because that would be bad. And something that does not hurt but drives me emotionally crazy is the fact that he is still either transverse or breech. I really do not want to have a c-section so if by 36 weeks he is still not going to turn then I am planning on having EV to turn the little guy.

Saturday is my shower and I can not wait, I think I already said that in my last post but I have nothing for this little guy so I can not wait to see all the cute little stuff that he will be blessed with. Mike and I have had a hard time picking a name for this little guy. I know the name that he is set on and in the end I really do not mind the name and I actually really like it but its the way we came up with the name that I don't like. We had Ezekiel but when his dad said something he decided on changing it to this one. At first he still liked Ezekiel but now he is in love with this new name. I really do love this name but its just the fact that I liked Ezekiel first. There are a few other names on the list but I really don't this we will use any of them except the one that Mike likes and in the end I do it. But we will pick one soon I promise. 

Alright gotta go and drink some water and put the feet up, they are starting to swell. 

Yo, Yo, Yiggidy Yo!

Well the past week has not been too eventful but all in all it was a good week. This past week I got to spend sometime in the morning with Dani and Kenzie for a little bit while the girls got together and played for about an hour which was nice because Sydney loves to play with Kenzie. And Lisa and I got together this week and let the kids play together and on Friday we went over there in the morning so that she could go out and get some stuff for Topher's little burned shoulders and Sydney got to play with her favorite little man. Topher is such a sweet little boy that Sydney absolutely adores. Sydney calls Topher (so-sher) and then everyone else is her form of Lisa which is (basa) but if you ask her to say Lorelai, Drew, or Ezra she will but then she goes back to "basa".

I am not the type of girl that has a ton of friends but I do have a few close friends. I normally get along a lot better with guys. I have however realized lately that you can never underestimate the power of friendship. I have a friend and we both hate drama but lately our lives have been a little bit of drama ever since we got back from our little weekend getaway but no matter how much drama is in our lives I will love her no matter what. We talked with each other a lot about sometime we call "safe place" and even though our husbands are our safe place you also need that in a friend. Just someone that knows who you are and all the crazy things about you and yet they still love and care about you in spite of your craziness. I love the word "safe place" now because I know what it means in our relationship and I know that I can have the most crazy thoughts, feelings, attitude, or even take things out on her and she understands where I am coming from and how I am feeling and if she does not know how I am feeling she is there just to listen to me, and I know she already knows this but I will be there for her also. This past year I had one friend that knew the hard time that I was going through with the first miscarriage and it was right around the time that she got pregnant with her little rykie-boy but she was there for me but God also had another friendship in the works and about 2 weeks before my second miscarriage He planted a seed and had a relationship started with Lisa that I never would have imagined in a million years to be what it is 8 months later but all I can say is that God planned it from the beginning and that is amazing to me how blessed I am to be a child of the King.

Well as of yesterday I was 33 weeks and I don't have a single picture of me pregnant to post but Lisa does have a picture of me on my shower invitations, speaking of the shower it is next saturday and I am totally excited :) I can not wait I know that the color themes are blue and brown which is totally cute. So anyways I can not wait for that special day and I will for sure be posting pictures of that wonderful day :)

Sometimes we wont understand...

the question "why?"

Wednesday and Thursday and have some of the of the most physically and emotionally draining days that I have had in a long time. I can not go into detail because it is only between the three of us. We were able to get it handled between the 3 of us within 2 hours but it was not done there we had to go to two other people and there was confrontation involved which I do NOT do well with. Well actually I HATE it, it is one of the hardest things for me to do but this time there was not way around it. Everything ended up out in the open and the bond between the three of us is now stronger and I know that we all have each others back. There has been a lot of trust lost through this situation which is a hard thing for me but also I have a special person that I can trust with my life through this situation so I feel that I walked out of the whole thing a lot better!

I had a doctor appointment on Wednesday and I was told that if I have 2 hours of consecutive contractions then I am to report to the hospital so we are really trying to avoid that at least for 4 more weeks. I had a little something weird happen yesterday at the store which made my husband worry a bit and I was put on house arrest to make sure it did not happen again. If it continues then I will have to call my doctor on Monday. 

Anyways, a lot was learned this week both in friendships and about myself and I just pray that God continues to grow me the way he wants to. The one thing that I love about my relationship with my Savior is that in the end I answer to Him and my husband and when I am right with the Lord there is nothing for me to defend. And when you have a husband and friendships that are striving for the same purpose in life, which is to serve our Lord and Savior, then there is nothing stronger than those bonds!