Girls weekend and other things.

So I had a great time this past weekend with a few girl friends. I forgot my camera so I am not able to post pictures but we had fun. We only had the TV on to watch two movies and we really only watched one because the other one we talked through the whole thing. It was so nice to not have the TV on and be able to talk and not have kids interrupting us every few seconds. We were actually able to think. We played some games together which was pretty funny, especially all of the funny things that you had to do in the game, and I really did not want to do them! Debbie and Lisa made great dinners and Lisa made an amazing breakfast. Heather brought all of the bad snacks that we like to eat but I could not stay away from them.

Saturday I started having a few contractions while we were there and that was annoying because you just never know what to do about them. But everything was fine and we all had a great time. I can not wait to have another one :)

So last night and today I am just overwhelmed and ready to see this little boy. After having multiple miscarriages my mind is just nuts and I can not seem to get it together. I am so afraid that I am not going to be able to meet this little boy, I want him out now so that I know that everything is okay. I know that God is in control but right now it is so hard to focus on that especially now that the contractions have gotten more painful. I feel like I am in labor but with nothing happening. I am just done!

Weekend!

So this weekend I am leaving without my family to spend sometime with some girlfriends. I have been away from Sydney with Mike but I have never been away from the both of them. I have never been away from Sydney without Mike and for some reason this is harder. I love her so much and no matter how bad of a day we have or whatever I love to wake up in the morning knowing that I can see her precious little face. 

Mike has a first this weekend, he has never watched her by himself for more than a few hours. He gets lucky tonight because she is going to my parents since he has to work and I am leaving at 2:30. So they are keeping her over night and he is getting her in the morning. Then he is going to his moms house till Sunday...so he is getting some help :)

Needless to say I will miss them both so much but at the same time I hope that I can have some fun and relax.

Emotional

I am not sure what it is about a few of my family members but they are really getting on my last nerves. And maybe I am just really emotional right now but it is starting to put me over the edge. 

I feel that I am the first to lend out anything that I have to anyone as long as I know that I will one day get it back. Well in the past few months my mom has been asking to borrow somethings for my niece since she spends so much time at their house. I really do not care about letting things go to my mom, but its when my mom does not ask if she can send it with my brother. So in the past few months my brother now has my baby swing, tons of clothes, a little bathtub, toy, books, stroller, and much...much more. Normally I would not mind but for some reason I don't see my brother and sister-in-law taking great care of things so I feel like I am going to have to go out and buy all this stuff again.

Well today my mom and dad came over with my niece for a few minutes and my mom asked if she could sit in the bumbo I said that was fine. Well my mom then asked if she could take it home. I guess my dad heard me say something to Mike before they left that I really did want to give it to her but that I would...well he told my mom and now she is pissed off at me. And in no way did I mean to make her upset it is just the fact that it would not have stayed at her house. She would have given it to my brother and in my heart I feel that my brother and sister-in-law need to grow up a little bit and not get everything handed to them, plus I am not sure if I would get it back. 

So in the end I called my mom and asked why she did not take the seat and she mentioned that my dad heard me talk to Mike about it. Through that conversation my feelings were really hurt and I ended up hanging up on her which I have never done. She mentioned things that she has GIVEN (not even borrowed) to Sydney and me and said that she did not have to do that so now I am debating on giving those back just to be done with the situation so it can not be brought up again. 

Alright enough of that. 

Eggs

Well yesterday we decided we would try and decorate some Easter Eggs with Sydney for the first time. I really thought that it was going to be disastrous but it actually turned out great and Sydney had so much fun doing it. She actually had a little too much fun because when we were done she was not quite ready and decided to throw a little fit. Here are a few pictures of the fun event :)

Daddy's egg

One of Sydney's finished eggs

So excited

What her hands looked like afterwards!

This weekend we are not doing a whole lot. We have Good Friday Service tonight and Easter Service Sunday and I am not sure what time we are going on Sunday but it will be early because we are going to Mike's moms house after for some lunch and a little Easter Egg hunt. My parents are going to Teen Challenge for lunch and then to baseball game, so tomorrow morning we are spending it with them. I hope that you all have a wonderful and HAPPY EASTER!

I hear the Savior say,

“Thy strength indeed is small;

Child of weakness, watch and pray,

Find in Me thine all in all.”

Jesus paid it all,

All to Him I owe;

Sin had left a crimson stain,

He washed it WHITE AS SNOW.

For nothing good have I

Whereby Thy grace to claim,

I’ll wash my garments white

In the blood of Calv’ry’s Lamb.

Jesus paid it all,

All to Him I owe;

Sin had left a crimson stain,

He washed it WHITE AS SNOW.

And now complete in Him

My robe His righteousn ess,

Close sheltered ’neath His side,

I am divinely blest.

Jesus paid it all,

All to Him I owe;

Sin had left a crimson stain,

He washed it WHITE AS SNOW.

Lord, now indeed I find

Thy power and Thine alone,

Can change the leper’s spots

And melt the heart of stone.

Jesus paid it all,

All to Him I owe;

Sin had left a crimson stain,

He washed it WHITE AS SNOW.

When from my dying bed

My ransomed soul shall rise,

“Jesus died my soul to save,”

Shall rend the vaulted skies.

Jesus paid it all,

All to Him I owe;

Sin had left a crimson stain,

He washed it WHITE AS SNOW.

And when before the throne

I stand in Him complete,

I’ll lay my trophies down

All down at Jesus’ feet.

Jesus paid it all,

All to Him I owe;

Sin had left a crimson stain,

He washed it WHITE AS SNOW.

Photo Shoot

Jen Driesbach took some great family pictures of us. So I just wanted to post some of them.

Of course we had to get one with the monkey

Just hangin out

My favorite one of Mike and Sydney

She is such a goof

So adorable