Not a good night...It has been a really really hard night and then to have my little boy have a big enough seizure that he starts bleeding from his mouth and I can not figure out where the blood is coming from. Once he calms down I wipe him and find he has bitten his cheek. I HATE CMV!!!! I wish there was a cure for this horrible virus. I hate that he has to suffer for no reason. I hate worrying that I might one day wake up and he be gone. This virus has turned my world upside down to the point where sometimes I do not even know which way is up. It is hard and it is a battle that I have to fight every day but I just have to trust in Gods promises that there is good and good will come out of this. But I am not going to lie when I say this is hard every day it is hard, some not as hard as others but it is hard.
Tonight there were a lot of things that I wish I could go back and change but this is what God has in store for me and I have to try and keep my head up and keep moving.
I hate it too...it has turned your world upside down and it has wreaked it's havoc on all of us - but Im so thankful for Seth and how happy & amazing he is...he is perfect and exactly how God wanted him, I dont know why - all I know is that he has already touched so many lives & he will do amazing things!!!! Hang in there, I love you.
ReplyDeleteOh Melissa, I hate it too!!! But we sure do love Seth.
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